June 2025 - Trust Is Built in the Wreckage
Let’s talk about trust. Not the kind you give away easily. The kind you rebuild after it’s been shattered.
When I left my abusive relationship almost six years ago, I didn’t walk away intact. I walked away in fragments. My sense of reality, my sense of self, my ability to make a decision without spiraling into self-doubt; all of it was burned to the ground.
Abuse doesn’t just bruise your body. It rewires it. The nervous system stops knowing the difference between love and danger, presence and threat.
So trust, for me, has never been some cute ideal. It has been a practice of staying in my body when everything in me wants to run. It’s been about learning to recognize the difference between instinct and fear. Between the urge to protect and the opportunity to connect.
And here’s the truth most trauma survivors don’t get to hear enough:
Your discomfort doesn’t mean you’re broken. It means you’re learning what safety feels like in real time.
After trauma, your brain becomes wired to predict threat. Your amygdala (your brain’s alarm system) becomes hyperactive. Your prefrontal cortex (the part that helps you assess context and make conscious decisions) goes offline when you’re triggered.
You may flinch at eye contact. You may freeze in conversations. You may feel your whole body tighten at the idea of expressing a need. That’s not weakness. That’s survival. If you never learn to stay with that discomfort, you never learn that safety can be built with presence.
I’ve had two major relational ruptures this past year. Both with friends I loved. Both times, I chose honesty and both times, it wasn’t met well.
And still, I don’t regret telling the truth.
Because integrity isn’t about managing other people’s reactions. It’s about staying loyal to your inner compass even when the outcome sucks.
What I’ve learned is that avoiding discomfort doesn’t protect you. It isolates you. It trains your body to fear vulnerability instead of using it as a bridge back to yourself.
This full moon isn’t asking you to transcend your pain, it’s asking you to sit in the truth of it and still choose to stay. Sagittarius is about truth. Expansion. Fire. But not the performative kind. Not the kind that bypasses pain in the name of positivity. This full moon is a mirror. It’s asking:
Where have you confused protection with isolation?
Where are you still abandoning your body when it gets loud?
What truth do you keep swallowing in hopes it’ll make you easier to love?
Trust is not about comfort. It’s the willingness to stay connected even when your nervous system is bracing for impact.
A Practice: Honesty in the Body
Next time you feel a swell of discomfort (in conflict, in intimacy, in uncertainty) pause & let yourself feel.
Where do you feel it in your body?
Can you name it without shaming it?
What truth are you trying not to say?
Then say it. Maybe just in your mind at first. Then, when you’re ready, say it out loud.
Let your body hear your voice and remember: we don’t leave ourselves anymore.
You don’t need to be comfortable to be clear. You just need to stay. To notice. To choose honesty over appeasement. To trust that your intuition is not trauma, it’s what’s underneath it. To know that your body is wise.
The spiritual path is not bypassing your discomfort, but transmuting it into clarity.
That’s what healing is. That’s what trust is. And that’s what this full moon is here to reflect back to you.
You are allowed to be uncomfortable and still stand in your truth. In fact, that’s what it means to be free.
With love,
Zofia
